How precious are your thoughts to me, O God!

God is doing a lot in my life...much of it through unwanted circumstances.  Sometimes I don't understand why He does the things that He does.  I know he wants the best...I know he has a plan for me....I know all these things and I have unshakable faith in that.  I will NOT be shaken.  

Before I get to the point I think I need to define who people think that I am...

I'm that guy that has it all together.  The one that everything works out for.  The one who knows who he is and is content in the things in his life.  

At least that's who I think people see me as....

So...here's my point....I don't have it all together.  

I don't really know what God is doing.  He is doing something; I just can't quite figure out what He's up to, where He's going with all this, or who He wants me to come out the other side as.  Regardless of how confused I am, I praise.  Regardless of how lost I may feel, I worship.  I push and I wrestle and I fight.  Christ fights with me, for me, and on my behalf.  The only thing to do when you are in the desert is fight your way out.  (I don't really feel like I'm in the desert, but I do feel something great happening in me and I want to see it come to fruition.)  I feel very saturated with God's presence.  God has been speaking to me very clearly.  I love the sound of His voice, the way hearing it makes me feel important.  I don't know why He would choose to communicate with me, but He does.  There is something special about affirmation from the creator.  It fills holes that no other voice can.  I'll leave you with this....

"How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!  How vast is the sum of them!  Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand."     -----Psalms 139:17-18

Amazing!  Why God?

-Randy

fun fact:  this blog was written listening to Bush...old school...kinda funny huh?